Guok Cheng Ching
I turned 29 this year, yet I have never had a boyfriend. No one likes to be alone. Everyone longs to have a partner. I have been so eager to love and be loved.
When I was 21, I was away from my family for the first time to further my studies.
I could only go back home once every two months. Away from home, I needed to take care of myself, including my daily living, food, and health. In this period, I was so envious of friends who were dating.
“Why do they all have someone, but I am still alone.”
After God created Adam, the Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.” I believe God desires for each of us to have a life partner, unless you have the gift of singleness.
More Girls than Boys
Recently, I read a book and one of the lines drew my attention. “It’s challenging if you want to find a mate who suits you, because the population of girls is greater than boys.” That’s right. According to 2015 UN sex-ratio research, there are more females than males in the population of at least 100 nations worldwide.
I don’t believe I have been “too picky.” When I was studying in high school, there was a guy pursuing me. I never thought that he might fall in love with me. He pursued my best friend before, but my friend rejected him. At that time, I offered to be his listener. We talked often by phone. At the end of that year, he told me that he would be going to another state to study. At the moment of his departure, he said to me, “Will you wait for me? I have fallen in love with you.”
I had no idea on how to respond him, so I chose to run back home immediately. After one month, I told him, “No.”
This is because at the time, I was still studying in high school and needed to focus on my schoolwork.
After a few years, I became afraid of being too close to any guy. Any time I had a hunch that a guy might fall in love with me, I kept my distance.
Starting with Friendship
Time dragged for 13 years. When I reached age 29, an incident happened and it changed my life. A young man whom I have known him for six years expressed his affection for me. We knew each other through a Christian student association.
Once I asked him, “Did you tell your other friends?”
He answered, “No, just to you.”
I was touched and this was the beginning of our friendship. He called me as his “elder sister” and I also treated him as my younger brother.
“What are the things you will look for in choosing a mate?” Whenever I was asked this question, my answer was and always will be “he must have a sense of humor, good leadership, and also be a good listener.” And the man I mentioned fits all these things, and so we began to date each other. My heart was filled with so many thoughts over this time. Finally, I could only calm down through Bible reading and prayer.
Does God really have a plan?
I am not a person who easily accepts some guy on first sight, I am much more traditional. Friendship comes first. “True love waits” is what I believe.
Though we as single women may feel lonely at the moment, we can build character and improve ourselves in every aspect. I am far from perfect, and sometimes I am stubborn on little things. But because of love, we learn to let go of ourselves, communicate, and strive to solve conflict within our relationships.
Because of God’s love, we learn to commit ourselves to each other. So, no matter what circumstances you are facing right now, believe that God is in control and our Lord has a wonderful plan for your life.
Guok Cheng Ching is a writer from Petaling Jaya, Malaysia.
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